It's been a long time...

You know the rest of the song, I know you are singing it in your head right now.( Especially if you are an Aaliyah and  Timbaland fan)  It has been a very long time since I have written a blog and it's because I have been very busy creating a life :)

The last post that I had written was a look back at 2012 and how my husband and I had wanted to start a family and how very difficult it had been for us. We were actually supposed to start infertility treatments three days after I wrote the blog post on Jan 1st. Little did I know that I was already 4 weeks pregnant at the time. So imagine our shock when we had been trying for over 2 years to start a family only to be told that we wouldn't be able to without modern medicine and we conceived on our own.

I am now 15 weeks and there have been ups and downs. I have been so scared that I would lose this precious gift but I have been diagnosed with Hyperemesis gravidarum  which is a s a condition characterized by severe nausea, vomiting, weight loss, and electrolyte disturbance. I have lost 20 pounds in my 1st trimester and have been put on Zofran which is a life saver but I still have to deal with the occasional "Morning sickness" even though it's a little difficult I like to look on the bright side and at least I know that this baby is still there and causing me trouble already :)

Every appointment this baby is jumping all over the place so he/she is VERY active and we have to chase after  it to hear the heartbeat. My husband and I have nicknamed the baby "Kember" ( a mix of our names) we find out what it will be in about a week and a half and can't wait. To say that we are overjoyed is an understatement.  We know how it feels for couples who desperately want to have a child and it seems like it's not in the cards for them. I have no idea how this blessing happened to us without the use of infertility drugs but I feel so blessed that it has.

Infertility is something that plagues a lot of people and yet it is so taboo and no one likes to talk about it. You're not broken if you are plagued by this disease. Talking about it really helps you deal with it and makes you realize you are not alone. last year I wrote a poem to my unborn child and I would like to share it with you my readers. Before I do I just wanted to thank you all for the prayers and support that we have received. I also want you to know that I will be back with hair tutorials as soon as I get some more energy because real talk. I've been wearing puffs and protective styles :)

A letter To my unborn child

I've always been a kind of overachieverThe one that could always past a testBut for the past two years I can't seem to past the one that would Change my life for the best

I know that I would be a great motherA great balance between a teacher and friendI even dream of the day you would get a sister or brotherBut this waiting and waiting never seems to end.

I pray everyday that I get the patience to waitI pray that your healthy,funny and smartI wish is was as easy as looking at a calendar and picking a date.So I could just have a visual that I can look at and count down when my family would start.

But instead I get to look at other peoples  excitement of their expanding broodAnd everyday I imagine how you will lookWill you act calm like your dad or like me a complete fool?Maybe you'll love music or sitting in a corner reading a book

To me it doesn't matter what you will beI just hope and pray that you will find your way to me