A letter to my son

The love that was placed into my heart the day you came into my life was something I had been waiting for since I was a young girl.

I always knew I wanted to marry my best friend and with the love we had for each other we would become parents one day

I didn't know that we would have to wait eight years before this special love would unfold

Every day I watch you grow I am in awe of the way you look at the world, such innocence.

The innocence you have, I wish I could bottle up and keep forever.

I know that as you grow you will not only be molded by the things I teach you

But you will be shaped but the things you see, hear, and sadly even the things I will try my hardest to shield you from

I can't keep you a child forever

Those small hands exploring the world, the inquisitive oooooooh you say when you hear a new sound or word.

I must do my best to mold you as gently as a potter does with clay.  Give you everything you will need to make it through each and every day

I make it my aim to be diligent in teaching you the ways of life. I've realized that in my imperfect moments there is also lessons to be taught

When I mess up you can learn by my mistakes and even if you don't. I'll be here as your shelter and loving place.

I'll be here when the pain and grief I can no longer shield you from.

I'm you mother, your beacon of comfort when this world shows you its true self.